Bests & Worsts Reviews from Amazon

Overall, this is maybe the most positive review I ever posted! Even though it may sound pathetic enough. How it was: (overview of starting condition and attempts of other methods) I was so out of order with my life and feelings, I couldn't stop crying and thinking all the same heavy thoughts over and over all the time, when I finally crushed into idea of treating it like a condition with antidepressant or whatever we should call it... to go the 'medical way', which was in itself so ridiculous to me, that I had a hard time crying about the idea itself. ("I can't handle it anymore, this is what I became - now looking for a pill to get myself going. A-aaa-aaa-aa.. " Which is after about a year of struggling with the personal problem, which only gets worse, and I was completely exhausted to handle it, I just couldn't.) I never used any mood related treatment in my life ever before and I was 100% sure I don't want to deal with doctors (not advising anyone here, but this is how I am functioning). A few months earlier I have tried (also the first time in my life) the 'self help' book approach - I've read several books with the general idea of how to calm down or become a happier person or to accept whatever there is to accept, fight fears etc. I've tried many techniques - It put me back on my feet for some time, but not for long and not deeply. It felt like I am lying to myself constantly and pretend that I believe in something that I don't actually, but I am just afraid to mess with it so I keep pretending for as much as I can. And as soon as something touches the ground of my problem, I may burst into tears and be set off for weeks of misery again, helplessly. Balancing on the rope, that is how it felt. I was always trying to stay strong, no drinking, self-destructive behaviors, smoking, chocolate-abusing. Instead I tried yoga, green tea and good nutrition. I exercise on the regular basis, never let myself skip 'because I feel like crap' - in theory workouts should help with the mood, but somehow it doesn't seem to help me all that much. When it all failed again I went on Amazon to see if there is any over the counter drug that seem to help others. I have developed a conjunctivitis on one eye by then because of heavy crying and I just couldn't stop nevertheless. I needed to do something about it. And I decided on this supplement because of the customer reviews and overall rating. I have nothing to compare it to, I never tried anything else, I only ordered this supplement. Some reviewers mentioned you need to give it about a month to work - this put me in despair as I read through, I felt I didn't have a month, I would not survive another month like that. What happened using this product: I can tell I definitely had a placebo effect. Even before it came by mail, I felt I am getting some help on the way, others say it is good stuff and at least I did something... I seem to stop crying that same day when I placed an order and I treated my eye. Than about 4 days later when I started taking it, I was struggling to determine whether the supplement helped or did I just overcome some crisis period, was it a coincidence? Was it temporary? Was it just a placebo? Regardless, I continued taking 1 pill every morning. And... Well, the life didn't shine like a rainbow, but it never seemed that hopeless since I have started. Slowly my attention drifted to something more constructive than going around my trauma and expecting the worst of my fears to sure happen, blaming and repeating this cycle. My attention was now on the hard work and normal regular struggles we all face sometimes with work projects. I liked it being important, tough, risky and approaching a deadline - anything that kept me away from my mind was good, now I was able to concentrate on it, at least. I will skip the transformation, it was gradual and hard to describe, but a month later I was actually feeling good. All my objectives are same bad, the more I try to improve them, the worse they get. Nothing can be done at this point, I just need to live through this and see where the fortune brings me. However, now I was ok with that! I don't know how to explain, it is still beyond my mind, how in the same situation I can feel so differently! I am very materialistic and factual, relying on logic predominantly, but the fact is - I was fine! A much better 'fine' than on "be happy" books of any kind. Almost as alright as a year ago, before curtain things have happened. I was so much alright that I forgot I needed this treatment! I forgot to take the John's Wort Supplement for the sheer 4 days (was it really working, anyways?) - Oh, yeah!.. It was working. All the time it was covering my back! I got all my negative thoughts, tears and fears throwing me back into sleepless nights and rough swollen face mornings, the life of helpless despair. I did stupid things too, things that I regret now. I put the supplement back on schedule, now as I am writing this 1 week later, I feel strong, I have the life, and everything is going to be alright. And if it won't - than I'll figure out what to do anyways. Wasn't I always been able to find a way?! I will continue taking the John's Wort until my objective that I stress about gets better.